I am soSOSOSOSOSO blessed to have a family that loves and fears The Lord. I am so blessed to have a mom who always points me to Christ when I am in doubt and when I am struggling through life. I am so blessed to have a father who has a shepherds heart, who loves me and prays for me every day at 5:30 in the morning.
I am so blessed, yet why do I always complain. I am not entitled to ANYTHING so thank you Lord for all the blessings you have given me in my life.
i look back and see that so many of the qualities I have now, I had since I was a baby.
My parents always tell me that I was super needy when I was born. After they would rock me to sleep, they would carefully set me down in my crib, but the moment they let go of me, I would start crying. My parents had to sleep with me on top of their bellies because I would not let them leave me alone, and they always complain that I was so tiresome LOL. My parents thought this was natural until my brother was born and he would cry if they held him and would sleep super well if they just left him alone in his crib LOL. Needy Lee since birth….
That didn’t stop as a newborn…. It just kept developing into who I am now (HAHA). I remember whenever my dad had to go somewhere for a couple of days and couldn’t come home, I would cry behind our recliner because I was embarrassed, but I couldn’t help but crying. Whenever my dad called home, I would cry on the phone and ask him when he was going to come back..
And the whole over emotional thing while watching movies. That started when I was HECKA young too. I remember when my dad took me to the movie theater to watch Prince of Egypt, I cried secretly (or I thought I was pretty sneaky about it) when Moses’s mom and dad had to put him on the Nile River ( I was like 5 when it came out). My dad teased me so much in front of his friends after that, I was so ashamed to cry over movies/TV shows after that so whenever I would tear up, I would go to the bathroom…
I also remember crying at the end of Godzilla when he died and my dad kept asking why I cried and honestly, I cried because I was sad he died (I don’t even remember what the movie was about I just remember crying because I was so freaking embarrassed), but I lied to my dad and said I cried because I was scared. LOL.
It’s so crazy how personalities/emotions aren’t really a learned aspect, but.. something that you’re just born with.. I guess I’m just BORN a feeler and am just naturally needy….